Leap; A Haiku

Safety net secure

Time to do something drastic

Leap of faith. Taken.


From the Haiku Horizons prompt

 

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That Which We Call A Rose…

My first name is Jessica. It means “wealthy” or “rich”and I give a little chuckle every time I think about it because I am definitely not wealthy. Not in the monetary sense anyway. However, in other ways, I think that I am richer than most. But that’s for another post I suppose. 

Had I been a boy, I would’ve been Joshua, so the J is what was important in my naming. Both of my parents had a grandparent with J (Joseph/Joshua), so it was a given for them. Both of them also had pieces of their cultures where you name a child after a deceased relative (Jewish / West African), so it was (at the very least), something they agreed on which was a rare thing, and again, that’s for another post. 

I love my name, although I didn’t always. It was hard (in my mind) growing up as a black girl, albeit a Jewish/American/Liberian/Princess… named Jessica. There was a period of time where I tried to get everyone to call me by something else, but that never worked as even I would forget.

As a teen when I’d go out with friends and we were meeting guys and exchanging numbers, I’d use a fake name. Just something I’d come up with on the fly. I really only did that because I didn’t want them to know the real me. At that point, I loved my name and I thought being Jessica was a sacred thing and only those privileged enough should be permitted to know it. So why would I tell some random guy the innermost part of me?

So that’s me in a nutshell. Jessica. 

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Three bonus facts about my name that I found online:

*The oldest written record of the name Jessica with its current spelling is found as the name of a character in Shakespeare’s play The Merchant of Venice, where it belongs to the daughter of Shylock.

*If your name is Jessica, you are honest, benevolent, brilliant and often inventive, full of high inspirations. You are courageous, honest, determined, original and creative. You are a leader, especially for a cause. Sometimes you do not care to finish what you start, and may leave details to others. You can do well in position of authority, and prospers in intellectual and professional fields.You have an eventful, exciting life. You are versatile and have the ability to learn easily. Creative and outgoing, you are always looking for an opportunity to show your abilities, especially before audience. You are very flexible and likes to feel appreciated. You are looking for chances to mix with others socially and to communicate his ideas. You like to talk and can easily relate to different cultures and concepts. The biggest challenge for you is uncertainty. Easily getting bored, you can move from one job to another, switch projects and lovers. The high creative force can lead you either to happiness or unhappiness. If you understand your goals, if you can make major decisions in life and follow it directly and straight up without worry and uncertainty, you are able to achieve great heights.

*(Found on Urban Dictionary)  Jessica is the sweetest girl you will ever meet basically. She is known to be the sexiest person who walked the planet. Boys get nervous when around her and a lot of boys have a crush on her. Jessica is aspired to by others. She will show you a good time and also has a crazy/wild side to her. When you meet a Jessica, you will have a hard time forgetting her! She falls in love easily and loves to laugh. But she has a down side to her, like every girl, she has great shyness. When she falls in love, she falls deep. Boys love her! Jessica in a term means goddess. She has incredible looks. When you find a Jessica, don’t let her go! Shes beautiful, talented and has an amazing body. Guys like to often flirt with her but she doesn’t take that to heart. She isn’t perfect, but then again, who is? Shes very active and likes to do things. Jessica likes to dress nice and when gets complimented, denies all of it. Shes very artistic and is a great dancer. Boys are lucky to have her! Shes also very supportive and a great friend! She speaks her mind and doesn’t care what people think! She has great eyes and hair. Jessica is very loyal and open, her family value her a lot. She is loved by lots of people and even people whom she might not know about! She is an all round amazing person who everyone is grateful to have in their lives.

 

Woot.

 


Say Your Name prompt

 

Friday Quotes

Some quotes I’m hoping will inspire me this weekend to do something art related. I’ve found that I’m so worn out emotionally from work every day during the week that I just can’t do anything that I normally do that’s art related. Which totally sucks, because that just isn’t who I am. 

I am art. It’s in my blood, it’s in my soul and it’s time to get back to it.

So.. inspirational quotes, here I come:

 

Dragon Tears

Dragon Tears by Dean Koontz is definitely a book I can read over and over. He’s my favorite author, and although this is a VERY hard question to answer, I chose this one in particular because it’s the very first book of his I ever read.

My big brother, who is also a book nerd like I am, was the one who suggested I read it in the first place. I was on vacation, summer break I think, in NY visiting my brother and once he showed me this book, I couldn’t put it down until I finished it. He said he did the same thing when he read it, which is how he knew I would love it. I’ve been hooked on Dean ever since 🙂

 

 


Second Time Around prompt

 

Public Speaking; Meh…

The idea of public speaking makes me sick to my stomach. It actually makes me want to cry. I don’t really know why this is…it just is. I’ve always been that way, for as long as I can remember, now that I think about it.

Although it turns my stomach and I have to fight back the tears, there have been many times that I’ve had to just suck it up to get the job done. (yay me)

Like when I have to conduct trainings at my job. I do the new hire group training sometimes and also brief specific people on specific jobs they’ll be doing. So that in itself makes me speak in front of at least 10-12 people at a time. I HATE it. I feel like everyone’s staring at me, which of course is exactly what’s happening because I’m the one speaking, but somehow, I keep moving.

When my daughter was a competitive Rhythmic Gymnast and our gym hosted a meet, I was the announcer for crying out loud! Which not only meant I had to use a microphone, it meant that the entire gym, the competitors, coaches, judges, parents and anyone else I missed, was listening to me. AND I had to announce who was on the floor and who was on deck. Now, I don’t know if you’ve ever been to a rhythmic gymnastics event, but the young ladies that compete are coming from all over the place and have all different backgrounds and names. OMG the names! Some of them were Russian, Armenian, Asian, Lithuanian, and more… and I had to pronounce them correctly because goddess forbid I say it wrong so then I’d have a gymnast with hurt feelings, a pissed off parent, an annoyed coach etc etc… So I did my best. I am not, contrary to popular belief, perfect. So yes I made a few mistakes, but all in all, it was cool knowing that everyone was paying very close attention to me. And on top of that, I had fun! And my daughter won first place.. but that’s besides the point. 😉

 

 


 

Naked with Black Socks prompt